Today was a good day. We found an agency to work with Elise when she turns 3.
I thought we were going to use the preschool we had toured but the more I thought and prayed about it, the more uncomfortable I felt. I knew the preschool was not where Elise was supposed to go. This was very discouraging to me because I kept thinking, "Why wouldn't it be right?" and then, "Now what?"
The following day after I received my answer, we went to church. The speaker's topic was on the prophet, Joseph Smith. He gave the story about how Joseph was searching all the different churches to know which church was true then asked himself,
"I was one day reading the Epistle of James, first chapter and fifth verse, which reads: 'If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.'
I am in no way trying to relate my experience with the prophet's, but the principle is the same: I knew that if I wanted an answer then I must follow Joseph Smith's example and begin researching the different agencies, then "ask of God," which one was the best fit.
The day started at 11AM with interviews to a couple different agencies and ended at 5PM. It was a long, but very productive day and I feel so much better.
I didn't realize how much this was weighing on my mind until I walked into a specific agency and immediately I was overcome with an immense feeling of relief and peace. I felt the Spirit confirm to me that this was where Elise needed to go. After we left I couldn't hold back my tears of joy any longer.
Nothing feels better than to follow the promptings of the Spirit. I had received my answer and I knew it was from God.
Joseph Smith received a specific answer as well to his plight. His story goes on:
14 So, in accordance with this, my determination to ask of God, I retired to the woods to make the attempt. It was on the morning of a beautiful, clear day, early in the spring of eighteen hundred and twenty. It was the first time in my life that I had made such an attempt, for amidst all my anxieties I had never as yet made the attempt to pray vocally.
Ten years after he received his answer, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints was re-established on the earth.
I know that by sincerely asking God in prayer, and working to find an answer then in God's timing and in His way, we will be given the answer that is right.
Here is a video recounting Joseph Smith's vision:
Elise has taught me so much already but one thing that really stands out is recognizing the Spirit more and being taught specifically. Many times I've had questions that have had to do with her therapy, sleep, and some much needed upliftment.
I have received specific answers.
It is so humbling to know how involved Heavenly Father is in your life and it shows me how much He cares.
"God is in the details of our lives." -Pres. Thomas S. Monson
I received an answer to a prayer that I didn't want to hear but I was reminded in general conference,
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts." (Isaiah 55: 8-9)
I know if we put our trust and faith in God then He will help us in raising His children.
I received a tender mercy during a moment of frustration.
My friend back east has a son with autism who is a few months older than Elise. She was telling me how many hours of therapy he was getting per week and the progress he was making. I couldn't help but feel jealous and how it wasn't fair how much help he was getting just because of the state he lived in.
One day I felt the most calming and peaceful feeling that our Heavenly Father would make up the difference.
I could only do so much, the state could only do so much, but our Heavenly Father makes all things possible. I know He knows our concerns, worries, and efforts on Elise's behalf and I know He will help Elise grow to her greatest potential here on earth, whatever that may be.
I found this quote and can't help but think of Elise. I love how Anne Pingree uses the same wording as was given to me by the Spirit:
“Sometimes, in spite of all we do to ‘make weak things become strong,’ the Lord, in His infinite wisdom, does not take away our weakness. The Apostle Paul struggled throughout his life with ‘a thorn in the flesh,’ which he said served to humble him ‘lest [he] should be exalted above measure’ (2 Corinthians 12:7). Three times Paul asked the Lord to take away his weakness, and three times the Lord declined to do so. The Lord then explained that His grace was sufficient for Paul and that, in fact, His strength was actually ‘made perfect in weakness.’ Then Paul wrote, ‘Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.’ …
I LOVE being a mom to my 5 kids; one with special needs. There is no greater joy than being a parent! I love each one individually but this blog will mostly focus on our daughter with special needs and our journey with her. Thanks for reading!