As I entered the pediatrician's room I saw it; the paper that mocked me for months about how I didn't know Elise. How did I not know? When did I miss the signs? How did I miss the signs? Why didn't anyone say anything?
And here it was again, lying on the counter. A swarm of emotions came over me. Immediately tears entered my eyes when this same paper appeared 2 years ago which changed my life forever. Even though I already knew (or did I?) that Cal was on track my heart still raced as I answered each question. The haunting question, "Does your child sometimes stare at nothing or wander with no purpose?" burned in my memory. It was a day I will never forget and one I used to try to forget.
Within a minute I was done and felt satisfied with the answers. The pediatrician confirmed there was no sign of concern for Cal. I relayed my feelings to her of how much that meant. Three weeks after we found out about Elise I had my ultrasound to see if we were having a boy or girl. When I learned it was a boy fear came over me, knowing my chances of having another child with autism were greater especially with a boy (we have since learned that Elise does not have autism).
I have learned for myself the Holy Ghost is in fact a Comforter. Normally I would have taken that fear and ran with it, letting it consume and overtake me. Over those coming weeks and months I had an indescribable feeling of peace that all was well. At times I would try to think I should be more worried than I was but I honestly couldn't even make myself worried. That feeling of peace was so strong and I knew that everything would be just fine.
I strongly encourage all parents to screen each child at least at 18 months and 24 months. It doesn't take long. It helps you be aware of where your child should be or signs to look for. You can go to this website to print your own autism screening.
I LOVE being a mom to my 5 kids; one with special needs. There is no greater joy than being a parent! I love each one individually but this blog will mostly focus on our daughter with special needs and our journey with her. Thanks for reading!