Our genetic test results came back from the lab.
Turns out I have an identical genetic variant on the same SYNE1 gene that Elise has. Most likely the geneticists are assuming that because both Elise and I have that genetic variant and that it doesn't affect me-it likely has no affect on Elise. I could potentially be a carrier but they are leaning to it not being the cause of what Elise has. We recently have had some specialist appointments to rule out muscular dystrophy and have a few more appointments in the future to piece together this puzzle of a girl.
So that is the news of the week! We are happy and good. Every possible door that closes (like this last round of genetic information) is actually a step forward because things can get ruled out. An actual diagnosis may or may not change much; however, being able to know and determine or plan for the future may be useful.
At times it has gotten frustrating with how long and extensive this process has been. I have realized how little of patience I actually have.
Either I've been blessed with an incredible tender mercy or maybe I'm finally learning some patience and acceptance of God's hand in all this; probably a little of both. I don't feel the intense anxiety at having to know or like we're going around in circles. I'm not frustrated, disappointed or impatient of the answers we have been given or the lack thereof.
I finally feel content and at peace.
I guess it has been somewhat gradual because until recently have I realized how peaceful I feel about the whole thing. It feels like a huge weight has been removed from me. I know and testify that it is only because of our Savior, Jesus Christ's Atonement that this is possible. He is the true source of peace. In John 14:26 it reads, "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you; not as the world giveth, give I unto you."
I know our Heavenly Father knows what my family and I need to learn; to grow into what we are to become. Sometimes an easy, fast answer isn't what's best.
I will continue to put my full faith and trust in God and in His timing.
I LOVE being a mom to my 5 kids; one with special needs. There is no greater joy than being a parent! I love each one individually but this blog will mostly focus on our daughter with special needs and our journey with her. Thanks for reading!